as long as you wait for me!

Song: As Long As You Wait For Me
Written/Composed by: Jeremy "Passion" Manongdo

Distance can determine so many things
From new love to wedding rings
From stay or say goodbyes
I've heard the stories of failure and glories
The warnings of ones who will never ever try again

But honey we'll make it
Yes we will
Although we're miles apart
I'll love you still

chorus:
As long as you wait for me
Please save a space for me
Inside your arms, I know it's been long
But darling stay strong for me
Just as the edelweiss grows
So will our love also grow
I promise you that we'll make it through
As long as you wait for me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3w8Qr5xUJs&feature=player_embedded

My Moving On Letter

This is my way of moving on, of saying goodbye to a love that was never meant to be and was never mine from the beginning. You know, I’ve never really understood what happened between us…how and why we came to this - not seeing each other, barely talking, barely even on speaking terms. But then again, was there ever an "us" to begin with? We were just friends who kidded about having a relationship. . I never knew if you loved me back, I never asked. At first, it was because I truly believed there wasn’t anything out of ordinary that needed questioning, and when it finally dawned on me, it was too late. You seemed to have changed your mind. From the beginning onwards, things went from happy, even blissful, to downright ugly. Though I may not have said anything yet…I have loved you with all my heart, and loving you still, but I’m tired - I’m tired of fighting for a love that has lived its moment…of living with memories that are special only to me… Thank you for everything…for taking away my insecurities; for showing me that people do love me for who I am; for making me understand that people I love could hurt me but it doesn’t mean they love me any less, and that when they do hurt me, it is possible to forgive, forget and move on with my life; for making me realize that it's possible to trust again after getting hurt. Thank you for giving me the most painful lesson in my life thus far…that the moment you love someone you already have given him the capacity to hurt you, that how much you hurt is equal to how much you love, that getting hurt is proportionate to having too many expectations. Thank you for accepting me and allowing me to have enough room to grow, for inspiring me and making me a better person. Thank you for being there when I needed you - for the silly and serious moments; for making me laugh, smile and cry; for never failing to make me feel better no matter how down or how depressed I’ve become; for unselfishly sharing joys and happiness. Most of all, thank you for making me feel special, for making me feel loved, even if it was so ambiguous and so fleeting, I was hardly conscious about it. I’m sorry that things has come and end like this- I wasn’t supposed to fall in love with you and I wasn’t supposed to expect anything at all. But even if everything got so painful, I’m still glad that I have known you, to have had you in my life even just for a while. I’ve heard people say that some good things never last, others don’t even start - I guess that fits us exactly…we could have been good together…good for each other, but then since faith never really gave us a chance, things had ended before they even began. I’m letting you go, I’m letting "us" go. I’ve finally accepted that this is the way things should have been, that I should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that will truly make us happy. Even if it isn’t with each other. I must admit you probably won’t be too far away from my thoughts and thinking of you will still bring that tinge of sadness and regret. But I’m okay. I will be okay. Loving again may take awhile though. For now, im giving myself a time to heal, on making myself complete - so when the right one finally comes, I'd be able to give myself completely as I would have wanted to give myself to you. Wherever life may lead us…good luck! and tc to u always.......looking forward in seeing you next year......may pramis ka skin eh......i love you wilbert

some tots....

Thoughts just go off in my mind while finding true love is in my heart.My mind goes off with questions sometimes with no answers to them.My heart tells me to keep my hopes up and still have faith in it.One big question i have that i never seem to ever have faith in is,"Will i ever be be good enough for someone someday?"i never do think i'll be able to answer that question all by myself.My heart says,"Everyone has a special someone, you just have to wait and keep your hopes up."Whenever i find someone special, i end up getting hurt by the truth :'(Then i become someone i'm not, a person who's a big jerk/asshole to others.i don't want to be that kind of person.Then me and my friends are there to help me pick up the pieces and help me get back on my feet and back on track as i do with them.Most of the time i feel like a fool for ever falling for that person.But there's always one thing that will never change in the whole entire world, it's the love connection i share with my best friends
They will always be there for me to help me when i need it the most!

age 40!

i remember last year i made a promise with a frend at the age 40 we,ll commit suicide together...lol it was really funny....i cant tolerate pain then pumayag ako sa suicide...hahahah crush ko kc eh lol......and i think whenever we tok about it...nagtatwanan kmi hahahhaha......ang cute cute nia pag tumtawa cia sobra.....nkakamis tuloi...those wer the days...

random tots.....

I know I did some things
That I never should
I'd undo them if I could
I'd turn my life around for you
Anything you'd ask me to...
Just tell me...

What must I do to make you want to stay
And take the hurt away
And leave it all to yesterday?
What can I say to make you change your mind?
To have the chance to turn the hands of time
Back to the days when you were mine?
Just give me one more chance for one last time.

nice lyric of a song wc i can relate to.........for some time now im inlove with this person not knwing what will happen in the future....pra kcng wlang direksyon......i was actually planning of breaking up with him after his bday...ndi ko lng ngwa kc prng ako din magsasuffer...i really love him...its just that masakit din lalo na pag feeling mo na ndi pa sya over sa ex nia.....his ex must have done really something good pra mhalin cia ng gnun.....for that i envy him...un lng cguro...kya now m trying to distant myself na bka one day eventually mawala ung feelings ko for him and yes its not working...hahahahha mahal ko tlga eh.....first tym nkahanap ako ng katapat ko.....sbi nga ni carl nkahanap kan rin ng mgpapahirap sau pero msaya yan kc dian ko daw mkikita kung hangang san kya ko gwin for love...and yes i think kya ko gwin lhat for him.....i really dnt wanna lus him...well nsa sa knia na yun......i just really cant imagine myself loving sum1 else after him......

3 of my closest frend knws im planning to broke up pla with him and 2 sa knila pareahs ng cnbi kung kya mo.....mkipagbreak ka....pero wag kang magiiyak dian pag ndi ka inamo.....

isa lng naiba c ana...support kung support hahahahh for that i love her so much...sa totoo lng...gusto ko mangyario pag cnbi ko na mkikipag break ako ung pipigalan ako...pero prang malabo hahahha...so un ndi ko nlng ginwa......less expectation nlng cguro pra msaya......

if your not the one

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of me as your wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

(Thanks to bEa for these lyrics)

just for a while!

Just for a while
All that I want is a chance to be near you
Just for a while
All through the day
All that I need is to see and to hear you
I dream of how it must feel to embrace you
In my heart I long to hold you
Just for a while

I know deep within me
That you and I, we are worlds apart
That I never will have a part of your heart


Yet I go on to dream about you
DreaminÂ’ all day for a chance to be near
Or just to feel you close and to kiss you
Even just for a while
And I go on and pray that one day
Love will be kind to me in someway
But until then I know IÂ’ll have you
In my dreams I know IÂ’ll keep you
For a while

I closed my eyes
And I imagined that you are beside me
I closed my eyes and I feel you inside me
What I feel is as real as can be for a while